stagnation
Well, this is the first post that I’ve started without having anything definite planned. In fact, that is the very reason for this post. When you work for a very long time, almost non-stop, foregoing everything including sleep and food, and then the work finishes about four hours ahead of time, you get bored very easily. The initial feeling of relief is soon gone and you begin to realise just how much of your mind has been focussed on getting the job done. It begins to feel like the atmosphere is getting thinner and the breath is being sucked out of you. A vague sense of unrest begins to grow, interspersed with moments of extreme tiredness.
You begin to realise that this work, which you may have initially hated to do, has now become your comfort zone. It is your bubble, that separates you from the world. You can put off stuff to be done because ‘there’s work that needs to be completed’. How many things in life operate in the same way? Quite a few apparently.
It is very easy to get caught up in something. Initially, you struggle and try to break away. You are dis-satisfied and want to change things. Then the stagnation fills up in you, converting you into someone else, and finally binding you to itself. The beauty of this arrangement is that you don’t even know where you’re at.
This very life itself is an example. Look at children smiling and laughing. Why don’t adults smile and laugh in the same way that children do? Well, many of us seem to call this apparent seriousness ‘mental development’. We strive to appear ‘normal’ at all times lest the other ‘normal’ people see us in a lesser light. We always follow strict rules in society and religion without even knowing why we follow them. We treat everything as a task that must be completed rather than an experience that must be felt.
The way to beat stagnation in life is to do things just for the heck of it. Do crazy things, things that you would normally never do. Keep promises to yourself, and keep changing the little things, even if the big things cannot be changed fast. Without sounding too pompous, it can safely be aid that there is much more to this topic than I have discovered so far. We can only wait for knowledge to hit us as far as this is concerned.
